There are so much bitterness in me. Time, will fade it off.

Before the world of blogging and msn came into the picture, I guess sms was the way to go.

To the people that comes to my mind and people that are worth mentioning: (not that if you are not mentioned that I dont care about you, just that....probably it slips my mind, I dont want to mention about you, or it can be quite pointless to mention about you 'cos it's not the right mood to do so. )

I remember lying on the same bed, in the year 2001-2002, for most nights, sms-ing away. To whoever I was msging each night. Sometimes it would be Sheena, where I would keep on replying till I eventually fall asleep. Sometimes, it would be Daphne, where those were the days that I just got to know her and we rarely talk that much. And most of the times, we were talking about friendships and life I think. Cant really remember that much. Follow up would be an occasional Guanda, who would bomb me with his lameness. Haha. Hmm, Geraldine sometimes I think, cant really remember much. We drifted apart after JC, which is kinda sad 'cos we were once close, especially in secondary school where we would talk on the phone for hours, till my mum nagged and I have to put down the phone. And the fact that my mum was so strict about phone calls but I still managed to talk to Gel for quite long..It's still very amusing 'cos I think she must have spent alot of time on the phone 'cos she has so many ppl to talk to. :) Daniel is another fellow who would constantly msg me with erm forwarded messages or really corny smses. Let me think..who else..before my laptop's batt runs out..Janice. Not the classmate Janice, but the other one. Janice the pretty guy. Yeah. Was msging each other very frequently for some time. Oh, Sheena was the one that made me hit 2000+ smses in a particular month, and I was scolded by my mum 'cos of that. The scene where Sheena and I were talking about this issue is still vividly in my mind. I remember I was in class and I saw her and yeah...sth like that..another incident was that we spoke on the phone till 4am (i think) and we had to go school in a few hours' time. But we (or at least I,haha) appeared fresh and energised for the day's activities. Yeah, of course many little things of which that I still remember. Next will be Kok Kiong, where those were the days where there would be occasional smses and phone calls from him. Carolyn, hmm..I guess it should be quite frequently, otherwise we wouldn't have been good pals yeah? Yeah now that I remember, there are. And they continued even when she was in UK and where each sms was like 50 cents. Our friendship kinda died down, especially this year. Gillian, I dont recall sms her that often 'cos she's a Hubber, so yeah. OH yah, how can I forget about Chee Ching! Where are you now man! What happen to you?? I miss those days where you would sent me really 'interesting' poems and the occasional smses and rare phone calls. Somehow I remember calling you when I was dead bored at my friend's bbq chalet and you had to talk to me for some time. I didnt know why I called you at that time, but somehow, sad to say, I wont call you if the same thing happen to me right now. So, you better start contacting me again, and please choose smu over nus so that I can have company! Jiamin dearest, I read your last entry. I am sorry that I didnt reply to your sms. Will get back to you real soon, I promise. :) Did we get close only in J2? But yeah I think we didnt sms each other that often in jc? Shireen, same like jiamin, the occasional msges. Hmm, lastly, Kelwin. Yeah, since it's been quite some time, yup I liked him. I think from jc2 to near end of it. I think. Cant really remember. He's one of the few where his smses would make me happy the whole day, sth like that la. And only one of the few where I used to lie on my bed, sms-ing away till I fall asleep. Or sms-ing away while I was studying. Certainly, when you like someone, anything that the person does will automatically makes you happy la. Carolyn once commented that he isnt the type of guy which I would fall head over heels with. Yeah, I agreed. But he's funnily witty. Haha.

I guess this entry started off with me thinking about Kelwin and Sheena and it went a little out of point cos I ended up talking about other not-so-relevant stuff as well. Daphne, thanks for being there, smsing me in the middle of the night, when we were having our A levels, and during my exams this term. Especially for my CEO leadership paper. I know you probably think you didnt do much, but 'cos I had to go out with you, thus 'forcing' me to finish up my paper. LOL.

Of course, how can I end this entry without mentioning you. Dear Gil, thanks for constantly being there, especially this period, which I myself find myself absolutely ridiculous to shut myself up from almost everyone. LOL. I will be back real soon.

And Peiyu, thanks for always being there for me, when I need you. And for not giving up on me, even when I can be rather "off and on" at times. (if you understand, if not nvm. )


Yeah, this entry turns out to be longer than what I wanted it to be. It's like going to be 0530 soon, I really need to sleep man.




Oh yah, I realised I am still living in the past. So, after blogging about this entry, I guess I will feel better and to try to let go of all the stuff..

Right now I am thinking whether I should go and pee and come back and sleep. It's really troublesome to climb down and go and pee and risk the risk of letting my parents know that I am not asleep at this hour where it is also the time where they wake up each day. They are sure to nag at me tomorrow. Oh man, I can hear the birds chriping somewhere miles away man. Damned. I better sleep. To pee or not to pee..