MIA..

Yes I have noticed that I would always want to withdraw a little to catch my breath and center myself.

"As a Libra, you are usually quite a social person, but now you'll want a bit of quiet time to consider your next move."

So whenever I go MIA again, it is because I am considering my next move?

Wheeeeeee!

I am off to KL/Genting! Wheeeeeeee! Hahahaha....be back soon!

Every man for himself?

Every man for himself? But don't you feel good when you give more than you take? No?

It's one of those nights again. I am feeling very jaded. Probably 'cos school is going to start tomorrow, and I feel kinda sian attending my first lesson, after a long break of four months.

I am just going to not think too much about anything and look forward to Friday.

So Random......

My mummy says I am getting too "skinny". She has been trying to monitor my diet for the past few days, with the occasional probing of "Did you eat dinner last night"? Yesterday I went to the school gym (my first time there!) with Peiyu (thanks girl for showing me where and what is around, otherwise I will look kinda lost in there), and I weighed myself on the electronic weighing scale available there. Hmm, the weight doesn't really reflect accuracy I guess, I am too light to be true.

So in order to make sure I am eating, I woke up this morning (just probably half an hour ago) and ate toasted bread with KAYA and a bowl of chilled beancurd with ginko nuts and water chestnuts dessert that my mum has made the pervious day. So to make sure that I am eating. After which I shall proceed to sleep. Hee..

Why am I awake at 5.30 am in the morning and sitting here and blogging? I was woken up at 1 am, 2.30 am and the last, 5.30 am. Yeah, it's getting rather hard to have a good night sleep recently. One that I am sure to sleep from the time I get to bed till the time I am supposed to wake up and go do something. One that is not interrupted.

Of course I do feel tired, for the lack of sleep. But sometimes it is just so hard to fall asleep.



Gonna meet up with people that I haven't been seeing them for the past 1 year or so! So looking forward to seeing them!

What is there to talk about till 5am?

What is there to talk about till 5am? Haha, this is the first question many people asked. Seriously, I do not know too. I can't really recall what exactly did we talk about, just some random stuff, from beauty to HISTORY. Two sessions of 5am, what's next?

Saturday, I met Gillian and we went East Coast to blade. Initially, I was very afraid and I remembered telling Gil that I didn't want to continue. Haha. I even needed someone to bring me down the gentle slope. But everything came back after a while and I was blading rather okay. I think the last time I bladed was like 6 or 7 years ago. Well, the day was fun dear, all cos it was spent with you! :D

Oh, before we reached East Coast, I "twisted" my left foot, not once but twice. Not really twisted, but my left sandals gave way and my left foot was bent in an awkward position, which resulted in me having a tiny wound and a patch of blue-black around the wound. Just hoping that I will be able to run this coming Sunday.

After the blading trip, I went to meet Shir and my colleague-cum-friend, Frances, to have dinner at Great World City's Ichiban Boshi. Hoho, quite a nice place, reasonable prices, good food, I find it better than Sake! We went to try out Liquid Kitchen after that, and due to my recent encounter with alcohol, I decided to stick to non-alcoholic drinks. The ambience at Liquid Kitchen was quite nice, check out the pictures taken!

Frances, Shir and I.

At Liquid Kitchen.

Frances, Shir and I.
At Liquid Kitchen.

Frances, Shir and I.
We were sitting at some bus stop waiting for the bus to meet the rest. We were trying to look fierce. Hoho.

Shir and I. Trying to do a super act cute pose.

Shir and I. A more decent shot. Haha. I look damn fair next to Shir!

Hmm, after that we decided to proceed to a small chill-out place, as we didn't feel like going home. Frances' bf and Mr. Charming joined us and we hanged out till 1+am. Hmm, I drank beer. Yes, I know. I have mentioned that I will not touch it. Afterwards, while walking home, I did a silly thing. I didn't feel like going home yet, so I called Mr. Charming and asked him whether he wanted to have coffee with me. I really sounded silly. Since when am I such a PROACTIVE person?? Hahahahaha..

And so, we talked till it was 5am. Somehow the air opposite Beauty World didn't feel as fresh as the last time when we were at The Rail Mail.

But like what I have told everyone else, Mr. Charming isn't someone that I would fall in love with. He isn't romantic. He's not proactive.

Oh, I did something to my hair. Something that I wouldn't imagine myself doing so. I went to straighten it! Hahahahaha....Early morning on Friday, I went to my hairdresser to have a hair trim. The hairdresser layered my hair so much, that my mum said I looked as if I wanted to cry. LOL. So my hairdresser suggested straightening it. So I did. Haha. At least something different? After so long.....it just takes some time yet to get used to my new look..haha..

SIGH..

This is going to sound real silly. But I guess I shouldn't just try to forget about it or throw it somewhere at the back of my mind cos it's sure to haunt me.

I offered to help you collect the race pack. But you told me that you have asked your friend to help you so. The first thought that went through my mind was that, why didn't you offer to ask your friend to help me collect it too?

And so, as this gets blogged, the issue is closed.

Bad Weather..

I typed a rather long post last night. But my computer chose to show that Blue Screen of Death, so well. Yeah, I am glad that my laptop's back with me. Haha. I really cannot survive a day without it.

Weather's pretty bad lately. I have been feeling very unwell, for the past week. Flu, cold or whatever, cough, uncomfortable feeling in the chest, itchy eyes. And the lack of sleep, or rather the inability to sleep at all. SIGH. I find myself having the need to take a deeper breath in order to feel better.

Yeah, everyone's like asking me why I feel that Mr. Charming isn't the type of guy that I would want to be with. As what I have told Gil, "the fireworks display was really nice, but there were no sparks."

The night out with him was really nice. I like the part at The Rail Mail. Oh, actually it has nothing to do with him, I like the smell of the 5am air. It was really crisp.

Yes, we were out till 5am. Just talking. Haha. Yeah talking. So was there that much to talk about? I don't know.

Probably I will go into greater details in the next entry.

Girls' Night at Wala Wala!

Silly poses!

 

 

I want to sleep..

I haven't been sleeping well, since last Friday. Last night was the worst, I logged off msn at 2+am, wanting the much needed sleep. Planned to sleep till 12pm today, so that I can make up for the loss in sleep. I tossed and turned in bed, and at the same time blowing my nose away. Is the illness finally becoming full-blown? I have been in semi-sickness since a week ago. Been taking flu medicine on and off for some nights, so that I might probably get well, or so that I can be fit the next day. But I don't seem to be recovering. My nose still feels blocked. Last night, as it started raining and as the silly me switched on the air-con, thinking that a colder environment probably won't wake me up till 12pm. I started sneezing. Am I having a sensitive nose these days? I went to take medicine, twice. First was a flu panadol, which didn't really help. Second was my old trusty flu syrup, which the guilty me takes whenever (okay most of the time) I can't sleep. It acts as a sleeping aid for me. I know it's bad, but I can't help it. Both didn't make me sleep for long.

I woke up to the loud noise coming from the tv. My dad was watching some show, and it was 5am. I went to the living room and starting chomping on some biscuit, hoping that a full stomach will make me feels tired, or perhaps my body thinks that it's hungry that's why I couldn't fall asleep. I went to bed at 7am and woke up at 9am. Tossed and turned, nothing helps. That's why I am here, at 945am.

This is really bad. I seem to be having at most 2 hours sleep at one go. I am planning to nap later, hopefully sleep can at least take away my tired look and make my eye bags less obvious.
Anyway, yes, I am feeling stressed. Over silly things. Stressed and excited. Haha. Post-internship isn't happening the way I want it to be. Sometimes, it feels worse.

Another person to add on to the news of Mr. Charming. Shir, Dap, Gil, May, Ruiting, Simin, Chee Ching and Shufen.

On another note, I have a date to watch the fireworks! Hoho! :P

I will not drink anymore.

Admit it. Yes, I can't drink. I am really a bad drinker. 9 out of 10 times, I will puke. This time round, it was WORSE. I actually did an entire "merlion" act in public. I puked at the junction of Holland Village, right outside Crystal Jade area. In public. So so embarassing. But I am really glad that for the previous and this time round, I have my two best-est friends around me, making sure that I am okay. It is really embarassing to let them look at my puke, and at the same time endure the smell. Hoho. Where can I find friends like them! To Dap and Gil, as what some tv show just said (my tv's on), I LOVE YOU FOREVER! Muacks!

Photos of tonight will be up soon! I am too lazy to go find my upload cable! Hee..

BIG SIGH. I came home trying to log on to MSN to find dear Mr. hmm..what nickname should I give him? Mr. Charming. But...but...SIGH. We are just not fated. Too bad. Some things are not meant to be perhaps.

Oh, I have been telling too many people about Mr. Charming. Shir, Dap, Gil, May, Ruiting, Simin, Chee Ching and who else. This better stop.

Virtual Romance!

I feel like I am on Cloud 9 tonight. I laughed when Chee Ching msn-ed me to talk about crap. Like saying things like why I am not sleeping yet and why he's not sleeping yet and 10 for sweetness. 0 for originality. These words do not make sense here, only to me and him. Haha.

I realised I have been smiling to myself for no reason; on the way home, on the train, everywhere I go. For no particular reason. Probably 'cos it is going to be the end of my internship. I look forward to the days where I can sleep in late and not having to wake up at 0730 and be out at 0815 so that I will be on time to catch the shuttle bus to work. Ah...it's a luxury..Haha..

I have been trying to control my laughter, while sitting in front of the office's computer. It's hard. MSN is to be blamed. Haha.Hmm..I don't know how to put it into words. But I am feeling it now. When I am in JC1, during the first three months of school, I have experienced it before. Those days, I think we were still using IRC if I am not wrong. I had to secretly use my dad's laptop so that I could chat with a particular guy, in the middle of the night. It was kind of sweet 'cos the both of us wanted to talk to each other. I remember I was disconnected from the network and had difficulties reconnecting. He waited for nearly an hour for me to reconnect, when he had to get up early for some activity the next day. And he skipped that activity the next day, all 'cos he wanted to go school and see me. Haha. But you can never believe what a guy will say. They are all sweet talkers.

There was once, during Chinese New Year, where this particular guy sent me home, from town. He stays in the far east, and I stay in Bukit Batok. It was in the middle of the night. We took a cab. Well, it was all nice and sweet, with a heavy downpour to add on the romantic atmosphere. Imagine sitting in a cab, where it is raining heavily and you can't see anything out there, but you are all dry and comfortable. I didn't sleep right away when I reached home. I went online and after a while, he came online too. We ended up chatting for a while. It was just so sweet, isn't it?

Closure.

The night of fun and laughter was very much needed, as I kind of allowed myself to indulge in the pleasures of Singapore nightlife, revolving around people who are much older than me. To forget the sadness bit that has been throbbing me for the past few weeks. Of course it stings whenever I think of you. Until last night, it finally hit me that you should be all history. There will be better people out there.

Hoho, just like him. Haha, Shir and Dap, you ought to know who I am talking about. :)) Preparing myself to fall over in love again?

Was telling Shir if I am so fortunate to have lady luck coming towards me again this time round?