Counting my Blessings.
On the way to work yesterday afternoon, I was holding back my tears when my mum called. She was just asking where did I go (she went to the market and came home to find her precious daughter MIA haha) and whether I was going to have dinner at home. It was just two simple questions. Questions that were asked every now and then. But this time round, I was feeling very emotional about it. 'Cos I knew that my mum knew that I was upset. For mums know everything, isn't it? At that moment of time, I knew that I shouldn't do anything silly to upset my parents and people who care for me. People who love me for who I am. Right after I ended the call, Gil called, just to make sure I was alright. I was trying to sound normal. Haha. Dear, I know this is naggy, but I still have to say it out. I feel so fortunate to have you around. And dear Dap, May, Shir and Jia Min too! I will always be 24/7 there for you all!
Another person that I have always wanted to express my gratitude to will be you, Peiyu. You are always around to make sure that I am alright. School will be really a bore without you around, I swear!
Waiting for my bus with me,
Taking the same bus with me just to make sure I reach my destination,
Taking the train with me even though you are using bus concession,
Walking around aimlessly with me after boring project meetings even though we have morning classes the next day,
Slacking during the term with me just to realise we haven't been doing much work and end up rushing report deadlines together,
Staying silent and not probing even though you know that I am upset over something and kind of throwing tantrums at you,
Always being there 24/7 even when I go MIA at times,
Cleaning and touching up the bits and pieces of project work that I have failed to do 'cos I am affected by upsetting matters and never once have you complained or showed any displeasure,
Staying overnight in school with me,
Accompanying me on msn till I go offline each time.
And many more..
Who says you can't find true friends in uni? That's nonsense! You know what? You are definitely my closest friend in SMU. :) Thank you for always being there. And you actually DO need me to be around too! 'Cos no one will be always there to remind you of the stuff that you will always miss out in e-mails! Haha! That's the only thing that I am better at than you are!
It's always good to have dear old Benson around. He knows that I am upset recently. So my darling promised to bring me out on a romantic dinner date! Don't you dare to forget about it! Or else..hee..
Last but not least, to you. Somehow I am glad that you were that heartless to me that very night we have last spoken, just like how I was to you, 4 years ago. Of all the hurt that I have once caused you, you have returned them all to me. Of all the sweetest memories that you have given me, I will remember them all. I will. I want to thank you for waking me up. For telling me that you do not love me enough. For telling me that you are just not worth my tears. I am really glad that you have decided to let me go when I wanted to leave and to stop toying with my feelings. Yes, I may be a quitter, but in a game where there aren't any winners or losers, why should anyone stays? And for now, there will no longer be any unnecessary hurt, for I have found my rainbow at the end of the dark alley. Thank you so much. :) Good luck and all the best to you too.
