It's the 3rd week of school. But I haven't start to read any of my readings yet. There are so many commitments to attend to.

Just now, I had dinner with a smu friend. She mentioned that people who tend to listen to others' problems, tend to be more sensitive. Initially, I was disagreeing with her...but soon after, I realised what she meant.

When you listen to others' problems, you tend to put yourself in their shoes and feel what they are feeling. Hence, you wouldn't want to hurt others...but we, of course, would disappoint one another once awhile..

Sometimes I wish that I would live my life, just for myself.

Anyway hmm, I am facing this health problem right now but I don't feel like telling anyone yet. I am just hoping that it isn't anything so serious.

I have been sleeping on the couch recently. Treating it as a replacement for my bed. Sleep has been getting better. At least I don't wake up in intervals of 2 hours that often now.

Sometimes, I just wish that I would be somewhere else, anywhere else but here. I guess probably my mind is telling me that it's time for a MIA session.

Oh yah, I saw this cute guy on the train just now. He got this "I am not local" look. Hmm..he's probably in his late 20s or early 30s. Haha, I went to check whether he's wearing a ring. Haha..so he wasn't. He was standing just next to me, playing some game with his PDA. Why on earth would someone be playing some game on the train after work and not going out instead? Means he's single? Hoho! Haha..he's probably going to meet someone..I looked at him a couple of times. Well, if I am a guy, I am sure to pick up attractive girls on the train man. Everyone was required to alight at Yishun, so that ended my fate with him. We boarded the next train but we did not stand in the same carriage. Of course I managed to find out where he was standing haha. Hmm, conclusion was that I caught him looking at me. Haha. Well.....too bad for the both of us..

I don't know whether I would want to fall in love, get married before 30, have a few kids, a happy family, good income etc. Of course I would feel happy I guess..but.....

Someone once told me that what we want to do in life......probably we will not achieve it. Cos ultimately, it boils down to the other commitments we have in life, i.e. family, relationships, money, lifestyle. For practical reasons.

Like someone once mentioned that he doesn't want to be like his dad, who is earning a decent living and is contented. Have he ever thought of the sacrifices that his dad has made, in order to raise his family and make sure that everyone in the family's doing good? I am sure his dad once has his dream, to do something different from what he's doing right now.

This makes me wonder, whether my dreams that I have right now, will eventually be dashed and I would probably be married and settled down.........

I have been telling others that we should do what our heart tell us to. Cos we only live once. But I am not doing what I have preached. I guess when I am younger, I tend to be...more 'daring'. But now, I tend to draw back, and think of the consequences first.

Should I just live life as what my heart tells me to instead?