Boyfriend: who did you send this sms to?
Girlfriend: you lor. cant you remember?
B: You sure? i'm sure i didnt receive this sms lor. dont lie to me. tell me the truth.
G: yah, i sent it to you, remember that? i never lie to you lor.
B: okie. why this person called you for what?
G: oh, nothing much la. *starts explaining*
B: okie. why you called this person for what?
G: oh, was feeling bored and wanted to talk to someone lor.
B: okie, next time feel bored call me, dont call anyone else.

and so the story carries on..

Boyfriend was looking through the past few days' activities carried out on girlfriend's handphone. Checking her call entries, sent items etc.

And boyfriend and girlfriend are not teenagers. They are in their early 30s. I really wonder if girlfriend will get tired of all the explaining that is needed to be done. Perhaps she enjoys it eh? Does this thing happen between you and your partner? Yes, I know love can make you do anything; love makes you do irrational things; love makes you blind; love makes you not to see things clearly; but love makes you change.

I absolutely dislike having to go through all these checking and asking routines and having my partner not believing me and asking me not to lie to him.

Of course, I have a couple of friends who have this kind of relationships with their partners, which to me, is absolutely fine, and it always makes me amused whenever they do this. Right, dear? *winks*

So, i need a guy who, doesnt do this to me? So boyfriend, remember not to do this to me yeah?

Also, when your partner strays, dont just put the blame on him/her. When a relationship fails, it is because there is something wrong on both sides. So, when your friend's relationship does not work out, do not push the blame onto the other party.

I always thought you are different. I thought libras ought to have some similar elements in them. Today you proved me wrong. I am a little, okie, quite disappointed in you. What happened to the person that I used to know 2 years ago?

Sometimes I wish that you would like me, just like you used to.
Sometimes I wish that you would look forward to seeing me each time, just like I do.
Sometimes I wish that you would do certain things on purpose in order to spend more time with me, just like you used to.

Strangely, you seem to become a different you.

[case #1]

sms: hey can you help me with this problem?

*woken up by the sms. slept only 4 hours. should i wake up and on my computer and help this person?*
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*continues sleeping and tries to ignore the sms.*
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*cant get back to sleep and cant get the sms out of my head.*
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*starts to feel bad.*
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*on computer.*

[case #2]

sms: hey can you send me this?

*shit, that file is in my laptop and i am not using it. means i have to on my laptop just to send it to him? *
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*thinking whether i should just send it tmr or do it right now.*
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*decides to ignore it and just do it tmr or at a later time.*
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*shit la. i am starting to feel bad.*
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*on laptop and sent it to him.*

Been greeting my friend with "SHITA" everytime I see her. It's quite hilarious to think of it. Alright, it's nothing funny but I guess it's only between us to recognise the meaning of this word.

As some may know, I have been staying at my old place for the past couple of weeks. Yes, not on a daily basis, but the frequency has been increasing of late. Been only back home once or twice a week to sleep on my bed. Miss it. Yup, why do I choose to stay alone?

Yes, I can just walk nude in the house, no one cares. *LOL*
I guess the disadvantages of staying alone, mean you don't have home-cooked food to eat, no mama to dote on you, no tv to watch, less entertainment etc. And this is supposed to make me be more focused. But it doesnt seem to be the case, as I am riding on someone's internet connection at the moment and blogging. Yes, been surfing still, even with limited connection.

Yes, I ended up singing out loud to myself here. And going to lyrics webbies. Super CMI.

Let me dream a little dream of you tonight, please.

I used to listen to Daniel Chan's songs when I was in secondary school (He kind of disappeared now anyway). Probably that's why I am attracted to Luo Zhi Xiang. He looks like Daniel. A lot a lot a lot. Okie, at least at some angles. Somehow I wish that Daniel would be as popular as LZX. But, I guess his fame period is already gone.

I tend to smile to myself, whenever I think of my dream. Okie, it is not a kissing a guy or whatsoever kinda dream, nothing of that sort. It is purely a very sweet kinda dream, till you cant really find this kinda thing happening in real life. That's sad isnt it?

Some time back, dear told me: 好马不吃回头草. Well, I am following this strictly now. There's always a reason why people break up and yes, it is good to have a second go, yes I know. And I am really glad that I didnt choose that path at that moment.

Right back to my dream. I had a nightmare the following night, which ruined my plans to have the same sweet dream that I was hoping to have. So, everyone please pray for me to have the sweet sweet dream that I want to have k? At least tell me in my next dream about what the dream is all about.

I had the most wonderful and sweetest dream last night! Woohoo! It was so sweet that I was quite pissed that I was suddenly woken up for no reason.

[颜色灵魂]

今天，总觉得回家的路程，与往常不一样。
在巴士上，有很多乘客。声音感觉上也似乎比往常扎乱了一些。
家靠得越近，越觉得非常陌生。
平时经过的小巷，今晚总觉得非常不同。
是否是因为它有什么变化吗？
平日经过的小巷，今晚总觉得稍微耀眼了一点。
后来才从妈妈那里知道今天早上，小巷装上了五颜六色的彩灯。
怪不得感觉会大大的不同。
应该就是这个原因吧。。
或，是自己的内心早已与往日不再一样。

Mp3 正拨着一首英文歌！
“la la la..I’ve a crush on you, I’ve a crush on yoooou”
在宁静的夜里，凉风轻轻地飘到脸上，身体自然地随着音乐的节奏伴起舞来。
在宁静的夜里，唯一只能听到的声音就是轻快但甜美的声音。

就是在这么平静的时刻，
小美才能听到心中最亮丽的声音，看到最漂亮的景色。
也就只能在这一刻，一定不会有人，会嘲笑自己的缺陷。

Listen to what I have to say,

not with your ears

but with your heart.

Judge me with what you hear,

not from others

but from me.

Very RANDOM thoughts.

[break]


Someone please bring me to eat KIMCHI.

[break]


I love my mummy a lot.

My mummy is the greatest gift that anyone can give to me. Thanks for bringing her into my life. I listen to her, ranting about every little bits of her daily life, even though they might be very mundane stuff. Knowing that I can still listen to all these, makes me happy. My mummy dotes on me so much.

I love my daddy a lot too.

To be able to run behind my daddy on each of our weekly runs, breathing in his body scent, makes me happy. Even if perspiration always stinks, knowing that I can still breathe in this kind of scent, makes me happy. Knowing that my daddy is still around, makes me happy. We do not express love by hugging each other. We do not speak to each other that often. We do not even talk about serious stuff. He is a 'silent" type of daddy.

[break]


Sometimes, I feel so close to you. I can tell you everything, every "auntish" thing that I do.
But sometimes, I feel so far away from you.

[break]


I used to have this guy in my life, who always tells me anything, that happens to him. And I am always the first person to know about it. For example, when he was posted to some unit in army and he was damn pissed about it, the first person that he thought of calling was me. It kind of made me feel important.

A girl friend sms-ed me some nights ago. I was a little surprised. Somehow I knew that something was wrong. But glad that she thought of me to sms when she was feeling down that night.

A guy friend sms-ed me when I was running on the treadmill some nights ago too. Similarly, glad that I was the one he chose to sms when he was feeling down that night.

[break]


I am sure everyone faces disappointments in his life, once a while.

When I was facing some friendship problem in secondary school, I cried. Someone lent me her ears and listened to my cries in the middle of the night. It was really comforting.

When I did badly for my A levels, I cried. Someone lent me his shoulders and gave his hugs in the middle of the night. It was really comforting.

When I did badly for Networking (IT Subject) two terms ago, I cried. Someone lent me his shoulders and gave his hugs in the middle of the night. It was really comforting.

[break]


Oh, I am so in love with the show "He's a woman, she's a man". Think I watched it so many times till I can remember every detail of it. Tomorrow night will be the sequel to it and I am going to come home to watch it. Woohoo! *LOL*

I want to read "Farewell My Concubine" again. I want to watch the movie again too.

I want to read "The Memoirs of a Geisha" again. I want to watch the movie when it's out.

I want to watch "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" when it's out.

I want to watch the Korean show - Da Chang Jin.

I want to watch the Korean show - Stairway to Heaven.

I want to watch the HK drama show - erm some damn complicated title that I dont know how to read.

But I have no time. Or I am afraid that I will just keep on watching and reading and not do work.

[break]


I bought this 2000 pieces Disney zigsaw puzzle. Went home and only that did I realised that the size of it is double of that of a 1000-piece one. Dont know how long I will take to finish it. And the frame for a 2000-pc size costs about $80? So, if someone gives you a good quality puzzle with good framing, you will know that it will cost more than $100.

Feel free to give me RED PACKETS! :D

[edited]

16th October.

1. No stuff toys.
2. No jewellery - necklace, bracelet, pendant, earrings.
3. No bags.
4. No clothes.
5. No flowers.
6. No chocolate. Not even Mrs. Fields.
7. No cake.
8. No lunch/dinner/whatever meal treat.
9. Yes to anything that's hand-made or shows sincerity. *LOL*
10. Actually not much to choose from.

Just that if I want to wear accessories, I would rather get them myself cos only I, myself would know what I like. Makes sense?

No flowers. Giving me flowers means giving flowers to my mum. She's always the one taking care of them when I receive flowers. Yes flowers are pretty. Flowers are beautiful. Especially sunflowers. I know. But the only thing good about flower bouquets is the pretty paper used. I have tons of them already.

No chocolate. I am not keen on gaining more weight.


Well, 21st Birthday..

It doesnt really mean much to me. I havent been celebrating my birthday since..I was 14 years old.

Of course I know friends are being nice to me, by asking me to meet up during this period.

But I guess I am not a person who would enjoy friends, giving me a treat.

So if you want to meet me and give me a treat as a birthday present for my birthday, hmm, I would really appreciate it. But no thanks. Am I being a little too fussy?

Like some others, 21st will come and just go like that.


Will write more soon.

Nothing to do at night, so blog lor.

Hmm, I am not all that sad in my life la. Just that my blog entries sound sad, cos I tend to write when I am feeling..upset.

I dont look upset.
I smile and laugh at jokes.
I joke sometimes too, but it's not all the time when people do laugh at my joke.

well, dont judge me on what you read here. Cos it is just another side of me. Just one of the sides. :D